A new dawn?

Hi all

This is the first post on my blog. It's a way to stop those little animals running around my head causing chaos!

I've only recently started reading peoples blogs and found them to be rather entertaining.... I doubt this one will fall into that category, but hell, I can give it a whirl.

Ive recently had a little operation on my foot to have a nerve removed, and this is now my third week of lying on the sofa with said foot elevated. It has been a great time to take stock and really consider what's happening in my life.

I've come up with a few things:

1. I rather like not being at work.... this may be obvious to everyone who enjoys their time at home - but I have never been one of those people... and I mean never. I am addicted to checking my work emails, be it from my phone, or from my laptop. When I'm on holiday all I do is check the phone to see if someone needs me, to see if there is a great catastrophe that only I can solve. I'm not happy about what that says about me. My work defines me at the moment - If I don't have that, what do I have?
2. I like having time to think. My brain is always running at a mile a minute. I'm never just 'still'. But sitting on this blasted sofa has ensured my time to think... and I'm not sure if I like my thoughts.
3. I wish I kept a diary. I'm one of those people who always started a diary (be it personal, appointments, food, weight - you name it) at the beginning of the year and then come March 1st always ditched it. I'd like to look back now and relive all those interesting moments through my own eyes.
4. I love my parents, but they drive me up the wall. - I think its the prolonged exposure and lack of escape route due to the poorly foot which is compounding these feelings.
5. I love to drive and can't wait till I can drive again - only another week or so.
6. I love my friends, but I love myself more - sounds a strange thing to say, but I am soo comfortable on my own with my own thoughts that I forget to get in touch with these friends. I never quite feel worthy of them - as I don't think that I bring much to the table.
7. As the years go my my introverted personality takes over when I am not at work, as there, I am obliged to be a 'bubbly, amusing, extrovert' ... joy.
8. I keep thinking that I'm going to have more than one life. Now I don't mean this in a "I've lived before" kind of way, I just keep thinking that its ok if I don't have the marriage, house, kids, perfect job this time around....as I'll get to it next time... that can't be right surely?
9. This part of my life is drawing to a close.... I don't mean that I'm going to die - I just mean that if all goes according to plan, then I shall begin stage 2 in January - then stage 3 in January 2012... More about that in future blogs - I don't want to discuss it in case it doesn't happen!
10. I'm liking this blogging thing. - What a great way to get everything out in the open?!

Bridget Jones was on the Beeb last night so I was obliged to watch. Colin Firth is the epitome of man... if only they sold him on shop shelves? I'd have two.

But I am struck at how the film conveyed Jones as quite a sad, drunken, spinster. I never got that from the book - she always seemed on the edge of sanity, instead of sadness.... Maybe it was ReneeZs portrayal... I'm not sure, but as I'm now in the 30 bracket, it really struck a chord.

Lying on the sofa last night with my lovely foot elevated to within an inch of its life, I managed to get bitten on my thigh! - Bloody bug. Its scratch-tastic. Not.